you|and|me

wanna pack your bags, something small
take what you need and we disappear
without a trace we'll be gone, gone
the moon and the stars can follow the car and then when we get to the ocean
we gonna take a boat to the end of the world
all the way to the end of the world oh, and when the kids are old enough
we're gonna teach them to fly you and me together, we could do anything, baby
you and me together..

(dave matthews band - "you and me")

childhood | fear

i never dared to look at the darkness under my bed. never ever.

Fear of the dark, fear of the dark
I have a constant fear that something's
always near
Fear of the dark, fear of the dark
I have a phobia that someone's
always there
("Fear of The Dark" - Children of Bodom)

Fear is the most powerful emotion in the human race and fear of the unknown is probably the most ancient, so you're dealing with stuff that everybodys felt from being little babies: were frightened of the dark, were frightened of what we don't know about. (Fear of The Dark - movie)

every morning, please have me!

don't forget your breakfast (self reminder).

"All happiness depends on a leisurely breakfast."

- John Gunther

work | relax

happy work.. and relax!

i found a similar design with my sketch above, by phileas atelier for granon photo laboratory.

me | want a journey

seriously..

Peace On Earth.

I just want to share something, about peace of the world comes from the simplest thing that you could reach. Something that you didn’t imagine before.

It came from the very first page of this infamous book, Three Cups of Tea.

I will not re-tell the story, you have to read it by yourself and get yourself into it for days! :) It is a true story which can inspire you a lot..

Greg Mortenson. An amazing guy.

He built schools for Pakistani children, and he’s American. You must know, that nationality is the biggest problem between US and Middle East countries, nowadays.

He started the idea to build a school for children in Korphe (remote village in Pakistan, near K2) with no money. He sent 580 letters to famous people in US, asked for a little help to donate a little money for the children. He got almost nothing, except one letter with $100 cheque. He worked as a nurse, without a permanent shelter to sleep in, he slept in his car so that he can save his money to the Pakistani children!

One day, a miracle came into his life. A rich scientist, named Jean Hoerni, offered his money to be a single donator, and all he did is writing a $12,000 and sent it to Greg. Just like that. Do you know what was Hoerni reason to help? The reason was: 'He knew that nobody will ever help Greg, since Greg’s aim was helping Moslem.’

Can you guess what was bothering me? That nationality and religion things! Why should we differ and fight each other with that reasons, since we’re all God’s creatures? Is there any thick wall between us, as a human being, that really separates us from each other, so that we can close our eyes to help people who need our helps? And then, we preferred to do war instead of saving people's life? Isn’t that silly?

After years, Greg successfully finished his first school, of course the way he went through wasn’t that easy. Pakistan isn’t a safe place for an American guy like him. But, he prayed as a Moslem, he spoke Urdu, he got along with Pakistani very well. And even, his Pakistani friends adored him very much, more than they adored their own leader. They considered Greg as their hero, who cared about their life, who touched their lifes from his heart. Greg spoke with the children, asked what they need. Greg didn’t lie about anything in his life, he did whatever it took to help Pakistani.

After the first school, he planned to build another schools and needed many supports from America. He spoke in many lectures, he spoke to people in America about what Pakistani need to help their life. And America agreed with him, America helped him. And suddenly, 9/11 tragedy happened. Things changed. People sent him hating-letters, cursed him for what he has done for ‘enemies’. But, it wasn’t what he was thinking; people in Pakistan or Iraq or Arab or another Middle East countries were not their enemies, they’re just the victims.

Greg told them : One single thing to help people in Pakistan, is education.

It is not a bullshit nor a joke. It is the fact and one way to build peace on earth. And America gave their supports, once again, to Greg’s program to help Pakistani children.

Please, destroy the thought about how Christian wants to spread their religion through the school in Middle East. It is not the goal. They, as human beings, want to educate their ‘friends’ in another continents, to give them good perspectives of life. There’s nothing we could get from war, or by harming people whom we don’t even know. By giving them opportunities to go to school, they can build their own life and they can choose the good from the bad.

Not every American is as bad as you think.

And not every Middle-East people is as bad as you think.

Don’t stereotype them!

Pakistani loves American guy, named Greg Mortenson. They promised to sacrifice their blood and their life to save Greg! It is a kind of relation which you can’t imagine.. Because we watched too many news on TV, we only can see the outer side of the war itself. Many people inside the war are suffering.. They are not involved in the war, they don’t know what the purpose of the war. They are the victims.

So please, open your eyes. Don’t choose a side. Don’t put your religion as your reason to hate others.

Imagine how beautiful our world without war.

May peace be with us.

Link : You can support and help Greg Mortenson's program.

| i feel good for this friday - 231009 |

22 october 2009

last night, my mom called me as usual, i call it 'a-twice-or-three times-a week-phone-call-routine'. the conversation went as usual, she asked me "have you had your dinner?", "are you going to sleep already?", "do you feel tired after working?", etc.

only one thing was unusual, she reminded me that the day after yesterday (which is today) is my dad's birthday.. errr, actually i remembered about everyone's birthday in my family since we're only four and i'd celebrated it the whole my life. then, she said one thing i almost forgot, "kak, tomorrow is dad's birthday.. and a week after that, dad will be retired." ooopppsssss.. it would be the day that we always talked about when we gathered, since i was a child. retired day! it is coming. oh my God! actually, nothing should be worried, hmmm, should be nothing at all. but, my mom said, "dad wishes you and your brother to settle your job first, since he will not be a working-man a week later."

and that sentence successfully made me had a sleepless night! what should i do? should i stay here forever? shouldn't i reach my passion, instead of doing something i don't like?

and until this point, i clearly understand : one single thing that matter in this world is.. money.

and me, screaming alone in an empty room : "why? why money???" and nobody cares.

23 october 2009.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, MY DEAR DAD!

55th birthday in his life. i'm wishing you a long-long-long-life.. :)

actually, with a disturbedful-thought from last night, i don't feel really well on this birth-day of my father.

i got so disturbed and couldn't think further for my future. my mind kept telling me that i have to stay here, for money sake! i am so cheap!!! (*sigh) why was it so urgent? because i have to submit my resignation letter by the end of this month, that's my deadline.. i have a week left and it is very urgent, thinking time should be over by this week.. -_-"

i sent a message to my brother, ask him to apply to some companies in singapore, since he was interested to work here. i can't do anything except encourage him to try and apply as many as he can. i wish he can find a job as soon as possible, which can make my parents not too worry about their children.. argh, my head was full of future-problems.

suddenly, a message came to my email, from my former lecturer. i did asked him to be my reference since i was going to apply for a volunteering-job, a job that bothered my mind for months. i do know that there will not be much money, or even there will be no money there, but i can't deny my heart.. my heart tells me to try. and the thought bothered me more when i read an inspiring book by greg mortenson, three cups of tea! (you should read it!)

my former lecturer wrote in his email to me, "i'm always available to help anything for 2003", and he also gave me his full name and email as needed to fill the application form.

can't you see that this is where life bring me to?

i'm no money oriented person. i will do anything to please my mom and dad.. but, can i just please them with my own way? not with the richness that i could achieve, but with something diferrent that maybe they never thought about it.

suddenly, i feel good for this friday.

i pray (hardly) that this would be the rightest decision i have ever made.
..and honestly, i am afraid!

..above all,
happy birthday, pah!

Bold Whatever Applies To You

copy & paste from melur. :)

You like showers better than bubble baths.
You cannot stand pop music.
You have a sister.
You are an only child.
You have black hair.
You have blonde hair.
You have red hair.
You have glasses.
You wear contacts.
You like TV more than movies.
You don’t talk on the phone often.
You like to shop.
You like emo music.
You are tall.
You are short.
You are average height.
You have long hair.
You have medium length hair.
You have short hair.
You use AIM.
You use Yahoo IM.
You have more than 3 pets.
You like sushi.
You love sushi.
You are on a diet.
You are currently on the second floor of your house.
You have a small room.
You are in high school.
You have 1 little brother.
You have an older brother.
You are allergic to something.
You have a boyfriend/girlfriend.
You have a current crush.
You have many crushes.
You have been kissed.
You have kissed another girl.
You laugh a lot.
You have lots of friends.
You are lonely.
You are depressed.
You are listening to music.
You are doing homework.
You have school tomorrow.
You are sick.
You hate your teacher.
You think your teacher is OK.
There is drama in your school, constantly.
You are wearing sweat pants.
You are wearing socks.
You are wearing a T-shirt.
You have lost a loved one.
You hate your school.
You loved your school.
You have been picked on.
You have been yelled at.
You have gotten in a fight.
You have said a bad word.
You shop at Abercrombie and Fitch.
You play basketball.
You play softball.
You play baseball.
You play soccer.
You play football.
You hate sports.
You get manicures.
You shop at Pac Sun.
You go to the mall a lot.
You are close with your family.
You never fight with your parents.
You have been grounded.
You have driven a car.
You are listening to your iPod.
You are watching TV.
You are watching a movie.
You are listening to the radio.
You are singing.
You are happy.
You are sad.
You are blah.
You are anxious.
You are about to go somewhere.
You haven’t been out of your house for over 3 days.
Someone besides you is in the same room with you.
You love your natural hair.
You hate your eye color.
You wish you were never been born.
You write your own songs.
You write books.
You hate to write.
You hate your hometown.
You love your hometown.
You are smart.
You are average.
You are dumb.
You get good grades.
You enjoy having people at your house.
You love going to the movies with a lot of people.
You like to go bowling with your friends.
You have ice-skated before.
You like popsicles.
You think Vanilla is better than Chocolate.

They're Big.

i am not a fan of concert.

but for them, i would do anything.. include standing inside the crowdedness and getting wet because of sweat! and i was (super)satisfied.. truly worth to watch, though they didn't sing 'going where the wind blows'. they were stunning!!!

i would like to share some for you..

the bigger and better band.. MR. BIG! on Reunion Tour, Fort Canning Park, Singapore.

photos courtessy of karina aryanti : http://www.facebook.com/greetkarina?ref=nf

mrbig, you rock!

zooey deschanel.

first of all, sorry.

i have to share this. since, i thought she is pretty and really cool.

i've just watched 500 days in summer, starred by her- zooey deschanel. the movie was pretty good, not that outstanding.. but it was good.. love story, though the narrator said "it's not a love story".

and most of all. she is pretty. the cameraman knew how to shoot her videogenic angle! i'm not kidding. you have to watch and find out by yourself, only to see her best angle.. hehe. :)

source : http://electricityandlust.files.wordpress.com/2008/06/zooey-deschanel.jpg

i googled her and found out that she has a band, named She & Him. you can listen to their song, you can click here. i like the layout and the little girl header.

just want to share and show you that prettiness isn't always that ordinary pretty. i don't know how to explain it in words. nnngggggg.. but, in my opinion she's just another extraordinary pretty. don't you think?